Lovers Hate
Silvina Ocampo and A. Bioy Casares
English Version, B. Renner

XIV

Contradicting his most intimate hopes, Dr. Montes had to confirm my earlier diagnosis. Mary's death was owed to strychnine poisoning.
Settled and authoritative, the commissioner ordered the gendarmes to follow him.
"With your permission," he said to us, "we'll begin the search of all of your rooms."
I approved the method. The commissioner turned to me. "Let's begin with yours, doctor. Unless someone else wishes to declare the possession of strychnine."
No one responded. Not even I. The commissioner's words had humiliated me. I had never imagined that my room would be searched.
"You should not implicate me in this case," I said at last. "I am a doctor. . . . I demand to be respected as such."
"I'm sorry," he replied. "The same rod for everyone."
I believe his intention was to suggest that his rod was not entirely metaphoric.
In spite of myself, I led them, or more truthfully, I followed them to my room. My own Calvary awaited me there, and likewise the satisfaction of proving the absolute dominion I have over my nerves. Powerless, as if they had injected me with curare,I had to tolerate those coarse hands profaning the contents of my valise and, unspeakable!, opening one by one the vials, as sensitive and delicate as virgins, in my medicine kit.
"Take care, gentlemen!" I exclaimed, unable to contain myself. "You are dealing with extraordinarily pure substances, do you understand? Any scent, any contact can destroy the virtues of these medicines."
I achieved what I had sought. With renewed cruelty, they dedicated themselves to the medicine kit while I slipped between the profaners and the night table. My right hand, leaning casually on the marble, rescued the vial of arsenic. I was disposed to suffer any ill treatment, but not that they strip me of those droplets that were the pillar of my health.
When the policemen finally finished with my kit, I let the vial of arsenic fall into its place among the others. I believed myself safe, but fate had not yet let me escape its talons. Chilled to the soul, I heard the commissioner's order: "Now we will proceed with a look at the pills."
I understood his uneducated words: he referred to my droplets. I supposed, naturally, that he would require them immediately. But Commissioner Aubry, with a lack of logic comparable only to his lack of courtesy, moved on to Cornejo's room, leaving me completely free to take the precautions that prudence recommended.

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