Lovers Hate
Silvina Ocampo and A. Bioy Casares
English Version, B. Renner

VII

The next morning Mary was dead. A little before eight I was wakened by disturbing noises: Andrea calling me, asking for help. I switched on the lamp, rapidly leapt from bed, with a steady pressure deposited the ten drops of arsenic onto a card and transferred them to my tongue, wrapped myself in my purple dressing robe, opened the door. Andrea's eyes were red; she seemed ready to throw herself into my eyes. I resolutely kept my hands in my pockets.
Soon I knew what had transpired. While I followed her along the halls of the hotel, my cousin told me that Emilia had just found her sister dead. I had to extract the information from a weft of sobs and moans.
Then I had a melancholic presentiment. I recalled the vacation I had promised myself: my literary labors. I bid Petronius farewell and entered the dwelling place of the tragedy.
My first impression was of a sweet scene. The lamp lit Emilia's head against a row of books. She was weeping silently, and it seemed to me that, in the beauty of her countenance, she revealed a calm I had not noticed before. A heap of manuscripts and publishers' galleys lay on the table. A sympathetic impulse beat in my breast. The dead girl was in her bed and, at first glance, seemed peacefully asleep. I considered her more carefully: she displayed the signs of strychnine poisoning.
With a voice in which hope itself seemed to weep, Emilia asked, "Couldn't it be an epileptic fit?"
I wished I could answer in the affirmative. I let my silence respond.
"A fainting spell?" Andrea inquired.
Atuel entered the room. The others--from my cousin Esteban to the typist, even Manning and Cornejo--were clustered at the door.
I determined that the death had occurred within the past two hours. In response to Andrea's question, I said, "She was poisoned."
Offended, Andrea replied, "I myself attend to the meals served here. If it were food poisoning, we would all. . ."
"I did not say she had ingested tainted food. She ingested poison."
Dr. Cornejo came into the room, opened his arms and said impetuously, "But, good doctor, what are you suggesting? How dare you, in front of Miss Emilia. . ."
I adjusted my glasses and looked at Dr. Cornejo with impassive disdain. His affected courtesy, simply a pretext to interpose himself, was beginning to try my patience. Besides, with his theatrical gestures, he was panting like a gymnast. The room was airless.
Drily I replied. "The choice is clear: suicide or murder." My words produced a profound impression. "But I am definitely not the doctor who will draw up the death certificate. They will have to persuade someone else that we are dealing with suicide."
I suspect I could have convinced myself rather quickly. But my words were born of emotion: I enjoyed irritating Cornejo. Besides, with that plural--"They will have to convince"--I put everyone present under the suspicion of murder. That too pleased me.
"I'm afraid Dr. Huberman is right," Atuel agreed. I remembered his and Mary's shadows. Then he went on, "Here is the bottle of drops she took every morning; the stopper is on the floor. . . . If poison was hidden there, we find ourselves facing a crime."
It was the last stroke. Now we could not avoid involving the police. I thought that, in the future, I ought to control my impulses.
Dr. Cornejo declared, "Don't forget that we are among gentlemen. I refuse to accept these conclusions."
An elemental, shameless cry interrupted my meditation. Then I heard headlong steps drawing away.
"What is that?" I asked.
"Miguel."
I felt that the boy's intemperate reaction was a reproach to all of us for having descended into petty grievances and wretchedness in the presence of the definitive miracle which is death.

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